Closure
September 27 2009 - No comments yet...unfortunately.
Everything you do makes me want you,
Everything you say makes me reminise about the day,
Where you gave me that note that started it all,
Where you confessed your feelings for me,
Where you let me know you wanted an ‘us’ to be.
I will always believe you are my number one,
I will always feel that our love is never ending never done.
You complete me in ways I can’t even explain,
You make me feel beautiful inside and out and make me feel what counts is what’s in my brain.
Loving you hurts because I need you so bad,
The feeling of a me without you is the equivalent to sad.
When you told me you forgot so much,
I felt crushed.
I wanted to remember it all too but I couldn’t and I knew,
That our time together again may not be like it used to.
You asked me if I was ready and I told you I was,
I never hesitated I just answered because,
I felt in my heart I knew,
That it could only be good despite all we’d been through.
My perfume locked you in,
But it was the look in your eyes and the feel of your lips on my skin…
That had me enticed and made me miss it all more,
I opened the lock and let you through my door.
I am afraid of being hurt,
Afraid of being used.
I love you so much,
I figure what do I have to loose?
In giving you my heart,
I feel like I did at the start.
As I left you I cried,
Thinking about what if I died.
At least I knew I was happy
At least I knew I was complete,
I couldn’t look at you because it hurt.
As I thought that tonight I’d be alone,
With me my fingers and this phone,
I’d write out a note
About anything to help me cope.
As tears fall I remember,
All the things we been through from January to December.
I feel empty I try to smile I try to laugh and have fun,
I try to let in all the sun.
In my heart I know you are a part of my dream,
This feeling without you makes me want to scream,
At the top of my lungs.
Me and you we make a great team.
I remember your kisses all over my body,
I remember your eyes gazing into mine,
we locked as we stayed as close as can be.
No letting go, this was just you and just me.
I remember thinking I wanted to go slow,
I wanted to tell you and just let you know.
That I wanted time to stop,
I wanted all other responsibilities to drop.
I wanted to go away,
Far far away.
Where we could be, where we could stay like this and have happiness set us free.
I wanted to say I love you,
But I was afraid you wouldn’t say it back,
I didn’t want to hear it or feel the pain as sharp as a tack.
Sometimes I doubt it all,
Sometimes I feel as though I just want to crawl,
Into a hole and stall,
Maybe I do have expectations that your love runs as deep as mine,
That my love Is the strongest you will find,
But that may not be,
And I may just see
That someone will take the love away from me.
I am writing to let you know
That I am so grateful for all we have been through so,
Sorry that I may have hurt you,
A billion times or more…
That I may have temporarily tried to close our door,
To rid any pain and avoid the fights and more.
That I leaned on you so much for support
That I made you feel as though it was out relationship I’d abort,
That I caused you any pain,
That I will still be here in all the rain,
That I love you madly deeply do…
I know u may think it’s insane,
But in life I feel as though you are the one.
I don’t want you to run,
Because I opened up to you with this.
I’m not expecting your mind – soul – body or sweet bliss,
I understand you are focused on you,
Please just know
- you will always be my boo
The positivity projected by Ashley, in her writings, makes me think she doses herself with really expensive drugs before typing away. She may look naive, but don't let the extra-bright teeth and the chipmunk-like cheeks fool you...
